#im the gimmie numbers kind

[i-will-write]

I swear there are only 2 types of writers:

the ones unable to do any kind of math

gimmie the numbers, I want to crunch the numbers, I love using the numbers

[that-one-weeb-but-starwars]

You Babysit the 501st because Anakin had to go off by himself on a Mission

-"alright men for this assignment you'll be lead by Master Y/n, since Commader Skywalker had to go off on his own for this one"

-litterally terrified of her

-everyone thought war was bad and scary, bur damn she put a whole other level of scary

-She was actually very nice to them and when she was given a list of numbers as there names she tossed them off the hanger and let them fall down the cliff

-"Gimmie some real names! For real men as fine as you individuals!"

-okay they like you way better now

-Echo's still half and half about you though, he didnt know if he should be scared or not

-The mission was simple giving the group and there temporary General some time to hang out in the town

-Y/n bought them all a hot meal as they all sat together at one really big table

-Okay so your kind of Mom now

-"you can try." "Wait! You'll actually teach me how to use a lightsaber!", Oh was Fives happy

-they all watched him not really fail but not really succeed, they had a lightsaber battle- Fives didnt win unless you let him

-Watching a sunset with them

-theres a group photo of you all, you sitting in the middle like a mom with her children sitting around her

-Guess your the pin up girl of the 501st Legion now

-oh god your face when you see it

-"what is this?" "Its you" "Tup- When have I ever been that curvy?" "See! Redeye! I told you! She has more muscles!"

-it really wasnt "pinuppy" (is that a word?) Atleast they covered you all the way.

-you had to admit, Redeye did a nice job you admired it

-but they had to go back to Skywalker

-"It was an honor sir." "It was nice to meet you too Echo"

-"Im gonna miss you all!" "Commander please- and shes crying." "See rex! You made her cry!" "Me?!"

-when they actually had to leave you they were all bummed they didnt see you for a while,

-"IT'S COMMANDER Y/N!" "Men! Wait!- and there going after her."

Y/n turned her head gasping happily, "BOYS!"

"COMMANDER Y/N!"

-okay thats a little dramatic but they were happy to see you no less.

"There's so much to tell you!" "Please tell me it all!"

-You met Skywalker for the first time that day,

"It seems were teamed up for this mission"

-cue chatoic cheering

-Rex came to you separately as you both walked as he briefed you on the mission unable to look at you.

"Whats wrong?" Y/n asked.

"Commander, May I speak freely?"

"Of course."

"Its been hard. We. Lost alot of good men." Rex spoke, "I. There's so many-"

"Rex." Y/n spoke holding his face in her hand, "I...unfortunately know...Im so sorry..."

He hugged her quickly as she shuffled backwards due to it, but hugged back soothing him as she rubbed his back.

-Everybody got a hug that day

-Protecting your clone sons

-you were there when the Rescue for a supposedly alive Echo was put into play.

-Tech was takimg too long so Y/n cut open the pod carefully, Echo falling into her arms.

-"Mom!-"

-omg he just called you mom

-ya'll were lucky enough to get out of there alive

-Finally Echo found his place and you were crying like a mom sending her kid to kindergarten

-"Okay commander. I have to leave." "Okay fine- just one more mintue."

-Okay ouch to Echos Bad batch rep

-"Never thought a bunch of clones could be a mommas boys."

"Oh shove it up your ass Windu."

"You know having relations-"

"its forbidden. I know...these men deserve someone to guide them. And not no miltary leader. Someone with a sense of mortality. They think there expenpendable."

"You'll be let go by the council." Windu stated

"I know." Y/n spoke, "But...if I can get a farm somewhere and let them all know my location. They coming to visit after this war. I'd like that life, Jedi Council or not. The Jedi Council is a life Im willing to rid of for them."

[crew-of-the-detz]

Intelligent Intimidation

(Sorry for the content drought, but I do have some more stuff planned, enjoy!)

It's no secret that Burso love to fight. And they way they fight is to strike fear into the heart before striking with any weapon.

The Burso had gathered around the complex, the only Human presence left on the planet. All the Burso warriors in the sector saw the two ships break atmosphere and land at the previously undiscovered complex. The war chief walked to the front of the formation and shouted out. "KRIIIIYAAAAAAAAA"

The after his shout, the valley shook, the metal walls of the complex reverberated, the terrifying singular shout rang out from thousands of voices unified into one voice.

"KRIIIIIIYAAAAAAAA!"

An eerie silence held the valley, the birds had stopped singing, and the Burso warriors listened. Listened for any sound of fear or opposition.

Slowly, quietly, the sounds of drums started to emanate from inside the complex. Solid, strong, drumbeats, that spread. One drum became five, five became ten, ten became hundreds, hundreds became thousands!

Then from the drumbeats came warcries. Human warcries; promises of a messy death, no mercy, and love for battle. The valley shook again, more so this time but the Humans did not relent. Instead of one unified voice it was a million voices each crying out their destructive promises to the enemy. It was enough to nearly deafen the Burso.

Its no secret that Burso love to fight, but they're not stupid about it. They backed down, retreated a ways, and waited for reinforcements before storming the complex.

The Humans that day were saved, not by their numbers, but by their wit. For they were not a million strong, but four.

About an hour earlier....

Four Humans locked up in the control room of the complex, two soldiers, an officer, and a tied up pirate.

The pirate spoke first, "Okay, just untie me. I can think something up but I'm gonna need to look through that computer."

One of the soldiers gave him a nasty look, "Nice try snake. You're the reason we're in this mess. If you had just surrendered and not lead us on that chase out here we wouldn't be in an active war zone..."

The pirate raised his hands, "Yeah yeah I get it I [REDACTED] up. But listen, I might be able to find a way to avoid being Burso food."

The soldiers looked at the officer, the Burso had not yet fully encompassed the complex yet, but there were already a hundred or so. The officer approached the Pirate, her battle hardened face had seen his kind several times before. Lying deceptive snakes out for no one but themselves. But she also knew that if these snakes were cornered they could be the most cunning creatures in the universe. She took a blade and cut his hands free, "Get to work. But cross us again and I'll promise I'll give you something worse than the Burso."

The pirate immediately jumped up and moved to the main console, typing with the speed of a desperate man. "O-okay. This facility has a series of speakers for intercoms and announcements and the like so... okay... Okay! They can be controlled from here. Now, if this is just a standard computer it should have audio software... oh thank God. Okay, I have an idea." He turned to the two soldiers. "Take off your armor, quickly!" The officer nodded and the two soldiers stripped out of their armor. "Now, a knife." The officer handed him hers and he cut the balistic plates out of the armor and tapped on them, they were loud when hit. He handed the soldiers and officers plates and grabbed a microphone, "Okay, hit them like this."

Bum, bahbahbum

The officer and two soldiers followed his example. "Okay, okay good! Now I'm gonna count down from three with my fingers before hitting record. He counted to three, the all in unison: Bum, bahbahbum

They had drums. "Okay, now we duplicate that like... thousand times. Now, lets scream out heads off." He put the microphone in front of one of the soldiers, "Gimmie youre scariest war cry brother."

He counted down from three and then from the soldiers erupted. "KILL EM ALL! FIGHT, KILL, DEEEAAATH!"

The pirate shuddered, "good one," he gave the microphone to the second soldier, "your turn."

He counted down again and the second soldier threw his head back, "YEEEEEAAAAAH, IM GONNA RIP YOUR SCALEY [REDACTED] HEADS OFF!"

The pirate was smiling now, he presented the microphone to the officer. "Ma'am?"

The officer grabbed the microphone and slammed the record button herself, "RIP, TEAR, BLOOD, GUTS! NOT ONE OF YOU WILL SURVIVE THIS!"

This went on for half an hour, them all adding different war cries. Then, the pirate sat at the computer and edited the audio files, layering tracks, amplifying to make 4 voices millions. Then it happened,

"KRIIIIIIYAAAAAAAA!"

The four humans were mortified, but the pirate gave a chuckle to hide his anxiety and added. "Well... here goes nothing." He cranked the volume up max and hit play.

The battle medley he had composed blared through the complex, so loud they had to cover their ears and sit in silence. The track completed and anxiously all four watched the camera monitor to see what would happen. Then the impossible happened, the Burso backed down and retreated. All four shouted and jumped and hugged.

The officer grabbed the pirate and kissed him, then realizing what she had done, released him embarrassed. "Uhm. Uh, you're still under arrest." The soldiers just stared at the ground, "Well? Take him to the ship! They'll come back and we dont want to be here when they do." They loaded him up and took him away.

He got 2 years of his 30 year sentence. Sometimes the officer visits him, and there are rumors he might get out with good bahavior. He is a hero after all.

[letstalksymphogear]

Symphogear, Ep. 6 (Cont.)

Hibiki, having seen a horror upon horrors, immediately asks Tsubasa if she’s okay. Tsubasa points out she’s a hospital patient, why would you ask this question, you insensitive prick. Hibiki points to the following scene:

Now, you may be asking yourself. “How does a formerly comatose person who is now bedridden on an IV drip manage to do this much damage?” Simply put, Tsubasa has a very chaotic aura. She doesn’t even have to take stuff out of her room; the places she goes to just naturally wind up like this. It’s a metaphor for how much of an absolute mess this person is simply by existing.

“l-look i just- its hard to organize things and- im more of a visual person and-”

“BITCH YOU LIVE LIKE THIS?”

Hibiki unwittingly gets her revenge on Tsubasa. She doesn’t realize it, but her lecturing Tsubasa on what an absolute mess every facet of her life is could possibly be heralded as her lowest point in the entire series.

No, wait. Thinking about it now, this is her second lowest. We won’t see her lowest until GX comes along.

“hibiki, every single bone in my body is broken, you dont have to break my pride too”

Hibiki, being an absolute darling, actually picks up Tsubasa’s mess. This is more than she can say about her own messes.

“haha, miku usually does this for me! wait- wait a minute.”

“i dont get it. i tried to kill you. i tormented and ignored you. i refused to help you for months. i failed to train you on any facet of combat as your senior. i nearly let you get kidnapped and, failing that, nearly killed myself while making you watch, which ALSO didnt help you not get kidnapped aside from scaring the shit out of that weird lady. why are you... helping me?”

“because either we’re going to be very good friends or im going to toss you out the window personally!”

“oh god, that aggression screams kanade. i cant not like her.”

Absolutely annihilated. Just kick her while she’s down in her Taco Bell spiral of humiliation and self-discovery, Hibiki.

“it’s okay, tsubasa! you may be a terminal dumbass, but im sure if we all work together, we can share our braincells and become collectively smarter, for each other!”

“interesting theory. how many ya got?”

“ZERO!”

They trade the kind of banter two people with 0 brain cells would have and then Tsubasa points out Hibiki is doing a great job in her place.

“hey hey HEY HOLD THE PHONE IVE LEARNED MY LESSON IM NOT TRYING TO REPLACE YOU OKAY IM NOT YOU, IM JUST HIBIKI, DOING HER JOB, ALRIGHT”

Meanwhile, in the library, Miku is looking at books, as she does what she says she’s gonna do, unlike a certain other person cavorting with cute idols.

“The Gay Way: How to Get Your Same Sex Relationship Back On Track, by Dr. Lesbe Honest. wow, this one is right up my alley.”

Okay, I’m gonna be honest with you. I literally forgot they show you the title in this. Imagine my face when I made up that title on the spot only to be hit with this little number. Holy shit, Symphogear. There’s this thing called subtlety. I’m begging you. We get it.

OH, AND IT GETS BETTER, BECAUSE

THE AUTHOR OF THE BOOK IS THE WRITER OF THE SHOW

IT’S LITERALLY GOT HIS NAME ON IT

THIS IS THE EQUIVALENT OF WRITING A STORY AND THEN INSERTING A BOOK CALLED “LEARN THE PLOT” WRITTEN BY YOU, IN UNIVERSE

KANEKO STOP THIS BALONEY, PLEASE

AND LIKE FUCKING CLOCKWORK SHE JUST- SHE TURNS HER HEAD AWAY FROM THE BOOK TITLED “THIS IS THE PLOT MOTIF” BY “AUTHOR” AND THEN FUCKING

SHE CONVENIENTLY LOOKS OVER TO THE DISTANCE

AND SHE SEES HIBIKI WITH THE HOT IDOL MIKU WAS INTO, THAT THEY WERE BOTH A FAN ON, AND SHE’S JUST CHILLING THERE AND MIKU WAS TOLD HIBIKI’S ON SERIOUS BUSINESS

AND THE HOSPITAL QUARTERS ARE SOMEHOW CONVENIENTLY CONNECTED TO THE FUCKING LIBRARY ON FULL DISPLAY BECAUSE GOD KNOWS EVERYONE IN A LIBRARY HAS TO WATCH SICK PEOPLE DIE IN REAL TIME

AND NOW MIKU IS THINKING “OH MY FUCKING GOD IM BEING CHEATED ON” AND HER FEELINGS ARE HURT FOR THIS TOTALLY CONTRIVED FUCKING COINCIDENCE

AND SHE’S ALL “BOO HOO HOO I’VE BEEN NTR’D! THIS WAS A CUCKING PLOT THIS WHOLE TIME! WOE IS ME!” FUCK YOU. THIS IS THE WORST. THIS IS ABSOLUTE GARBAGE WHY WOULD YOU- WHY DO YOU EVEN NEED TO SET THIS UP? THERE’S SO MANY BETTER WAYS TO DO THIS!

AND SHE’S JUST STARING BACK AT THE BOOK WRITTEN BY THE SAME ASSHOLE WHO WROTE THIS ENTIRE DAMN SCENARIO IN THE FIRST PLACE, AN EVIL GOD MOCKING HIS SUBJECTS IN THE FACE OF SCRUTINY FOR DRAMA WITH THE MOST CLICHE LOVE NOTES IN A GODDAMNED SOAP OPERA

AND HIBIKI IS NONE

THE

FUCKING

WISER

SYMPHOGEAR SURE IS GREAT, HUH? I SURE DO LOVE SYMPHOGEAR WITH ALLLLLL MY HEART. WHAT A WELL WRITTEN MASTERPIECE! FUCKING BELONGS IN THE FUCKING MOMA!!!!!

Okay. Okay. Let’s get that out of our system. The worst is over. This is the, uh, crescendo of the bad side plot as it inevitably sets itself on the road to resolution. I’m not going to have an aneurysm. My brain is not going to split itself in half. We’re good. I swear, we’re good.

Tsubasa, meanwhile, wants to understand why Hibiki fights, wrestling with the Da Vinci code that is her own emotions. She points out the fight against the Noise isn’t a game, and it ain’t no comic book bullshit either. It’s real, it’s out there, and it’s not pretty yet easily marketable as cute mascots. And what does our protagonist say? No making it up, she literally says:

“i dunno”

Not a damn brain cell in her body, but props for keeping it real. I’d likely say the same thing.

This is the face of someone currently sucking air through their teeth at the raw frustration that someone would be dumb enough to risk their life for the sake of only helping others.

“listen. im gonna keep it real here. i suck at literally everything. math. social studies. writing. helping people is all i have, because its not a competition. you just... you do it. you dont get better at helping people, you just help. like, thats it. i dunno what else to tell you.”

Then Hibiki points out that she feels it all started with Kanade saving her, and the speech implies its a ‘pay it forward’ sort of affair. She was saved, and so she should save others. Unfortunately, it comes off more as a guilt complex. “I lived, and I feel bad about that, so I gotta save everyone else” kind of stuff.

“its my coping mechanism for my countless traumas!”

“i get it now. you’re just as much of a mess as i am. you just dont show it as much. that kinda thinking’s gonna get you killed.”

Tsubasa then correctly points out that it is a kind of survivor’s guilt, where she wants to be released from the pain of old wounds, completely unaware of the irony of her statement.

“yeah. i get ya. we’re both wrecks. but... we can be wrecks working together.”

This would be the part where she says I’M SORRY but apparently we just don’t fucking do apologies in Symphogear, huh? Too good for ‘em, eh?! God.

Then they go outside and talk more about stuff and Durandal. The summation:

“do you have the capacity to live a life forever kicking ass?”

“yeah”

Hibiki, coming to terms with how she wants to deal with shit, manages to sharpen (haw) her resolve as to who she is and how she uses her abilities.

Meanwhile...

“i cant believe hibiki is having an affair with an attractive idol popstar. especially my favorite one from their old band. not only is she cheating on me, but she’s cheating on me from one of the five people on my lists id immediately get with if i had the chance. it feels like a double betrayal. a real life one, and a fantasy one... why do i find this weirdly hot...?”

“HEY NEWCOMER WELCOME TO THE CUCK AND BUCK WHERE WE SELL FRESHLY FRIED CUCKS FOR ONE BUCK, REAL EASY, REAL CHEAP, GOOD OL’ FASHIONED JAPANESE SOULFOOD”

“ive come to take my throne. i’ll take the ‘one flew over the cuckoo’s nest” and have the three eggs over easy with the ‘easy sleazy pancakes’”

“make it an extra lonely helping. this is gonna be a long afternoon.”

“ahhh. a freshly cucked newcomer coming to the cuck and buck to duck amongst their bad luck run amok, huh?”

“listen dont sass me about my busy girlfriend with your dr. seuss antics just gimmie the food and lets get this over with”

“no problem! sorry, they just come easy. it’s hard to buck at the cuck and buck when rhymes you huck make you wanna fu-”

“FOOD. NOW.”

Miku then ponders about how her feelings may have spiraled from a process of over thinking, or possibly hunger. Maybe both. Maybe Hibiki isn’t cheating on her. Maybe the reasons are more complicated than she knows. She briefly contemplates communication; a futile gesture when it is Hibiki safeguarding a secret she is forced to keep for incredibly stupid reasons.

“thanks for the food, miss. it really helped sort my feelings out.”

“no probs, kid. here at the cuck and buck, the only thing we cuck here is... our hearts.”

Meanwhile, Hibiki is still hanging with Tsubasa. Hey, if you’re gonna hang out with a critically acclaimed popstar, might as well squeeze every minute out of it, right?

“so... taco bell, huh? im surprised you actually like taco bell now. maybe you just like fast food styled psuedo-mexican restraunts? have you tried chipotle?”

“i... maybe you’re right, actually. i’ve grown to love taco bell, but... maybe i should expand my horizons. kanade did say... singing makes you hungry. maybe thats what she meant. i should take to new life experiences...”

“yeah! i can take you to all the good fast food places i know!”

“dont you have a girlfriend?”

“she can join us! she’s a big fan of you after all!”

“hey- hey wait! m- more friends? more... more friends... more friends.....”

“more friends...”

Meanwhile, a crisis develops.

Chris, having heard the f-word (friendship), is heading immediately to do the exact opposite of this.

She’s taken some pointers from Tsubasa, t-posing to assert dominance.

“how the fuck is she even flying”

“i cant wait to tell hibiki how much i love and appreciate her despite the weird NTR aura surrounding this whole situation”

“yeah, that’s right! i’m meeting the Gremlin in the park for an asskicking, don’t worry!”

“oh, speak of the devil! hibiki! i love and appreciate you despite the weird ntr auras!”

“miku- wait. oh no. i saw this happen in sam reimi’s spiderman 3. im fucked.”

“YOU GUESSED CORRECTLY, PIDGEON BANGS”

I know I’ve joked about homewrecking, but this is ridiculous.

Chris realizes there’s someone else around she may have potentially hurt. This is surprising, given murder is not something she has shyed away from, but she’s slowly climbing that ladder of morality, so cut her some slack for taking it one rung at a time.

“im losing my girl. losing my grip. now im about to lose my life. this NTR business truly is the worst.”

Chris has accidentally employed the Dio Brando style of disposing of people, which consists of throwing a vehicle and smashing them until dead.

“you’ve taken one step too close to my heartstrings, Gremlin, and for that you’re about to understand the full definition of an ass kicking.”

Hibiki fucking punches the car. Everything is forgiven in this episode for now.

“i... hibiki... are you... a street fighter character? holy shit. oh my god. hibiki oh my god you’re a street fighter character. thats been the true problem here. you’re a street fighter character now. oh my god. cheating? how could i have thought cheating was involved? you were literally just becoming a straight up superhero! oh my god. the abs! the washboard abs! the signs were all around me! the only thing you went to do behind my back was kick ass!”

“i’m sorry. i need to go kick ass now.”

The good news is all that tension just got evaporated. Miku sorta gets the truth now: her girlfriend hasn’t been cheating on her, she’s just been trying to save the local tri-county area from the grips of inter-dimensional alien eldritch entities controlled by a Gremlin and her Mistress. It’s a lot to take in, though.

These two are about to fight head to head. Last time, Hibiki was but the pupil. Now, she is the Master.

“can’t touch me, goldie locks. lemme do you a favor and CRACK THAT WHIP!”

“oh my god hibiki’s gonna fight that weird looking person”

“naruto running deeper into the woods isn’t gonna stop me from beating your ass senseless, fists for brains”

“thats because i wanna talk, asshole”

“wait. wait, what? you... you want to talk? to me?”

Hibiki proceeds to aggressively describe herself to her. Name, identity, blood type, age, the works. This is because she’s trying to befriend her, because Hibiki feels fighting people is bad, and that talking is more useful than fighting. This is a recipe for suicide, normally, but in this instance...

“what in the goddamn hell... i... um... nice.. to meet you...?”

Hibiki deploys a counter-T-Pose to show kinship, feeling that they don’t have to fight like this since they’re not Noise.

“talk may be cheap but it’ll make kicking your ass all the more easier, nerd”

Chris learns this, in fact, does not make the ass kicking all the more easier. Hibiki’s fresh new moves manage to dodge whip after whip of Chris’s attacks, and it’s really starting to annoy her a lot.

“pain in the ass. so you learned how to fight, huh? fine. you’ll tire out eventually.”

“let’s just talk, seriously! or maybe we can bond over board games-”

“i FUCKING hate board games. the fuck are you, a grandma? just fight already! people cant understand each other anyway!”

“JUST DIE ALREADY!”

“i was told to kidnap you. but im exerting a loophole today; no one told me to do it alive”

“the only kidnapping going down is me, sleeping in on a thursday afternoon forgetting class exists, you neon porcupine. so come at me. can’t kick me ass if you dont come any closer, right?”

“WITH PLEASURE!”

“ive watched the entirety of dragonball z, i know exactly how this fight’s gonna go down”

“finally. looks like i got y- hey, wait, what?”

“ARE YOU ABSOLUTELY JANKING MY LEG? THIS BITCH IS LITERALLY GOKU? PULLING KAMEHAMEHAS AND SHIT? WHY? god. its me. yukine chris. why do you hate me. why do you drag me through all this shit only to be hit in the head with some real anime baloney. why. please. have some mercy.”

“i dont know what a goku is but sure, yeah, why not”

“im going to kill her. oh my god. she doesnt even know who goku is.”

“get that tentacle shit away from me. im not fucking around anymore. we’re going to have a heart to heart whether you like it or not!”

“oh shit she found my weakness. really close melee combat.”

“MADE A FRIENDSHIP GIFT FOR YA. IT’S A FRESHLY MADE KNUCKLE SANDWICH, STRAIGHT FROM THE DELI”

“OH GOD, PLEASE, NOT MY FACE”

“REQUEST ACCEPTED, PAL”

Hibiki punched her so hard that she physically destroyed the entire armor Chris was wearing in a single blow.

“she... she doesnt punch ME like that... i mean, probably because she loves me, but..”

“did... did she just kill that person...? hibiki...? you, uh... you alright...?”

[goddamnmuses-a]

Dan Watches: Star Wars: Episode I -The Phantom Menace

So.. I got the idea of writing my thoughts up as I go basically as they get to the Gungan city so.. i’ll try and remember my thoughts before that and then I’ll do it kinda live. Under the cut cus long. 

Alright.. So the opening crawl was very.. politics which to be honest as i’ve got older I actually kind of enjoy that side of Star Wars but it doesn’t really add anyhting to the actual film because I think everything thats in it could be picked up by just watching the film. 

I kinda like the battle droids.. weird soft spot for them. I like the big ship ones too and Droidekas i thought were the coolest shit ever when i was a kid and i stand by that. 

I’m not all that bothered by the racial stereotypes because like.. i’m not the races they’re sterotyping but i can see why it’d be problematic.

Jar Jar isn’t as annoying as everyone makes him out to be.. don’t get me wrong.. he’s annoying.. but he’s not cancer. 

Aesthetically the Gungan City is pretty cool, giant underwater bubble city.. i bet there’s cool fan art of it somewhere. 

Alright now we’re live.. The duck things the Gungans ride are weird. 

Do Gungans like JarJar eventually become the giant Green guy? .. I googled apparently they’re just two different races of Gungan despite looking like totally different Aliens.

It’s nice that all races are like “Life debt? Oh yeah thats a legit thing.”

Gungans speak like English or Common or.. i forget the Star Wars term.. Basic? is their second language.. but it isnt. 

Yooo Qui Gon just made JarJar go to sleep using the force.. Why is Force Sleep not a thing in more stuff... gotta keep an eye out for that now. 

Naboo is pretty.

Padme is so extra, she’s in her iconic red dress that’s already extra as fuck and then sees that she’s been captured and is like “Alright.. but first.. wardrobe change!” and then shows up in some black number. I’m not sure if at this point she’s actually Padme or if Padme is pretending to be one of her servants now but either way she had a costume change and nobody questions it so she must be having costume changes all the time. 

When Qui Gon force pushes two battle droids theres a really weird sound effect that sounds like it belongs in a mario game. 

Pretty sure Padme is the handmaid now and this new Queen should take the opportunity to be like “Yoo peace out bitches.” Then we get Keira Knightley’s adventures in Star Wars.

Also who was she before this swaparoo? Was she a handmaid and just suddenly got promoted to queen? Like she could be saying all sorts of shit. I know she gets revealed later on but think of how much she could do whilst Padme is away. 

The first words ever spoken to R2 in Star Wars, chronologically, (although inderectly) are “Hello Boyos”. Just sit with that. 

The first words spoken to him directly are “How rude.” which seems about right tbf with how sassy he is. 

Darth Maul is awesome. 

Keira Knightly or Sabe (I looked it up) is like “Yo actual queen, clean that droid!” i think she just wanted to feel more powerful than the actual queen there, little power trip. 

Nice Poncho Qui Gon. Cal approves. 

I wonder how long Padme took to convince the others to let her go off alone with Qui Gon and Jar Jar and R2 (Dunno why R2 joins them?) on a planet thats ruled by the Hutts

I kinda like Watto.. not as a person.. he just amuses me.

Kinda cool that Anakin can speak Huttese, wish he spoke it more often.. just cursing in Huttese as Obi Wan tries to teach him stuff. 

“Are you an Angel.” Smooooth kid. Smoooth, you’re gonna get with her. Despite her being way older than you. They couldn’t have just made him the same age as her? 

Toydarians should be used for more things, especially involving force users. 

Anakin. The slave. Is like “Here Qui Gon, you’ll like this food.” and he’s just like “Cheers” and pockets it for later. Dude. Try it. 

I really hope they do go into more High Republic stuff next, give me a Destiny-type game where you play as a Jedi with your mates. 

Quigons like “You must have Jedi reflexes to race pods” Then he catches Jar Jars tongue in a blink of an eye and Anakins like “You’re a Jedi Knight aren’t you?” And Qui-Gon is like “What makes you think that?” ...? .. You just fucking.. God damn it Qui-Gon. 

Anakin: “No one can kill a Jedi”. Palpatine: “Hold my Blue milk.”

I feel like im becoming fluent in Gungan broken basic which is worrying. 

Anakins mom whos name i’ve literally just forgot is like “He was meant to help you.” ... bitch.. what? Why does nobody question that? 

WHY DOES JAR JARS MOUTH MOVE WITH OTHER PEOPLES LINES!? ... Darth Jar Jar.  #PlagueisTheWiseWasAGungan. I mean not rly but seriously.. that would have been a really cool plot twist. 

Jar Jar got numbed and got his hand stuck.. so like.. perhaps not.. otherwise you’re playing a little too dumb mate. 

The look of worry from Shmi, good stuff. 

The two Headed announcer speaking basic and Huttese is pretty smart like, the one doing one and the other doing the other. 

What the fuck is Clegg Holdfast?

What the fuck are any of these races? Like.. where are these races throughout the rest of the franchise? 

Crazy that lightly bending that one part of the podracer can fuck it up so bad. 

Who the fuck is that other Hutt? Oh yeah I’m watching the like updated version with Geroge Lucas’ “Fixes” in it. Probably should have said that earlier. 

I cant remember if this is true but I’m pretty sure Qui-Gon knows Padme is the Queen and is just fucking with her at this point. 

Man Pod Racing is cool, fuck whoever says it isnt. 

Gimmie an updated Pod Racing ps4 game.

What the fuck is that long thin alien thats selling food to the crowd? Gimmie a Jedi version of him. 

Havent commented in a while because i just kept watching it tbh.

Coruscant looks cool. Still want more High Republic stuff. 

What the fuck is that driver alien, he looks in pain to exist. 

“There is no civility, there is only politics” The Chancellor code. 

Is it too late to call a vote of no confidence on Palpatine? 

I see you there in the background Yaddle. Get it girl. 

Fuck me the added extra of this long neck ass Jedi Master is so distracting. 

Where Jaro Tapal at tho?

You’d think after Padme’s like “Surprise bitch it’s me” moment coming up the Jedi would be like “Well shit.. maybe we’re less aware of things than we think... Yoda.. are you just a short human painted green?” 

Amedala... So extra with these outfits. I get that she’s a Queen but Jesus. 

Eyyyyyyyyyyyy it’s ET. 

Qui-Gon is such a bad boy. 

I kinda get why Jedi take kids when they’re really young, so they can’t remember their parents so they aren’t constantly worried about their parents and then fall to the dark side... doesn’t make it any nicer though. 

My vote went to Bail Antilles. 

To be fair not training Anakin could have been very bad. He could have like gone even more Darkside and Palpatine could swooped in and trained him himself completely. 

Maul is barely in this but fuck is he still cool. 

You know what I don’t hate Midichlorians. They’re just like atoms that stick to certain people and thats what gives them access to the force, it doens’t really change anything it’s just a scientific explination. 

You know what.. During the middle of the film, Jar Jar keeps his mouth shut and just lets people get on with it, that’s alright. 

How old is Obiwan supposed to be in this film? 

A little more variation in these creepy ass gungans would be nice. 

Damn the Viceroy and the other guy are huge or Maul is smol. 

Love that Gungan dindgeridoo horn thing. 

I also love the giant bubble shields. 

Are they watching a Star Wars battle tactics pc game on that screen?

Fuck The Darth Maul fight is badass. 

I don’t buy Anakin at all, he wants to fly out there and get involved, the little shit. 

Quigon doesnt even flip when he jumps, he’s just like “I’m too old for this shit.”

Yeah R2 is like “Go back” and Anakins like “Naaa fuck that”... Tut tut. Boys gonna be trouble.

The way Maul stalks back and forth the other side of that barrier like a Sith Tiger.. Good shit. 

Aaaaand Quigon is dead. RIP. 

“Now This is Pod Racing.”.. It’s not though is it? 

Nice to have something blow up and actually have debris instead of just all being gone completely. 

Anddd there goes Maul to go get robot spider legs and then be found by his bro Savage. 

Why do you wanna bring balance to the force anyway if it’s currently so one sided favouring the light side? Surely bringing balance is a bad thing at that point. 

Yoda’s already soooo old. 

Alright so they know there’s a Sith out there and the guy is still just like right next to them and they don’t know. Tut. 

That Jedi behind Mace Windu at the end looks intimidating as shit. 

Padme, he’s a kid, calm yourself down woman. You predator. 

Alright.. Film done. 10/10 Best movie ever. Naa tbh I enjoy the prequels more than most, obviously if you’ve stuck with me this long you know that but it clearly has its flaws.. still.. I enjoyed it! Feel free to ask me my opinions on specific things if you want.  Also shamelessly gonna plug my two star wars muses Cal and Savage here, rp with me you cowards. Also I’m down to star wars verse any of my other characters, literally any of them, i have ideas for all. 

[chxrimoya]

im just posting this here so i have it later bc entertaining convo

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You both like anime.

You: hey whats up

Stranger: Not much, just chilling with my oniichan in my uchi you know?

You: damn wish i had an oniichan

You: im just hitoribocchi rn

Stranger: Yeah it's pretty easy to get when you are a kamisama like me you know?

Stranger: I am just a full on ikemen

Stranger: Got a harem

You: damn kamisama

You: gotta have a favorite tho right

Stranger: Of course

Stranger: Always the osananajimi

Stranger: Gotta respect the firsts

You: osananajimi always the best

You: maybe jus a little bit on tsun tsun, yknow

Stranger: Bro you understand me from my toes to my atama rn

Stranger: I like the kawaii girls that got the tsun tsun

You: damn bro im glad we could tsunagaru like this

Stranger: Bokumo I think this is a tokubestu connection

You: an honor for me to be nakama with kamisama

Stranger: I am laughing so hard rn I cant believe this is still going. Like majide??

You: sou, maji da yo

Stranger: Sounds like you study your nihongo all Majime and stuff

You: am i just gonna descend into full japanese

You: likewise my bro

Stranger: I think so my nakama

Stranger: Gotta go zenbu nihongo

You: it started as shuumi but now i have degree so

You: saikou no weeb da yo

Stranger: Oh I see bokumo started when I was a koukousei

You: i was only hontou majime when i was daigakusei

Stranger: Then I did it in Uni with a major in film minor in nihongo

Stranger: Okok

Stranger: 分かったwww

You: respect for my nakama to follow their dreams in kokosei

You: 草

You: i'm afraid i'm ちょっと下手 now from lack of use w

Stranger: これは最初に冗談だけど、ほんとに分かったwww

Stranger: Daijyoubu. I am the same

You: 感じ嫁できないｗ

You: i am a Fool in Man's Shoes

Stranger: Got my degree 3 years ago and habent studied since

You: what a fuckin mood

You: my usage is all in media consumption and music, honestly

Stranger: Okay kanjiless こらはさいしょにじょうだんだけど、ほんとにわかった

You: but i barely speak it lmao

Stranger: I see same

Stranger: I have no one to speak to

Stranger: Do you play games?

You: あぁそう、私も

Stranger: We could speak to each other! I was supposed to be sleeping so this must be fate

You: は～い

Stranger: Stay night

Stranger: If you know whatimean

You: I AM ZA BONE OBU MY SOARD

Stranger: What kind of games do you play? Any league or pubg?

You: i took a fat nap earlier so now i cant sleep

You: unmei da yo

Stranger: Hahah

Stranger: Where you from?

You: i quit league a while ago, but i was considering playing again tbh

Stranger: Omg

You: california!

Stranger: We can play together

Stranger: And talk

You: gonna have to catch me up on new meta tho

Stranger: Hey I am driving to LA in 2 hours lol

You: too many new items and changes MonkaS

Stranger: All good I'll nurture you my imouto

Stranger: XP

You: bruh good luck with the traffic lmao

You: only if i get sufficient headpats u_u

Stranger: I wanna die

Stranger: Of course you will! Uwu

Stranger: I always give cute bois headsets uwu

You: bro gimmie ya discord

Stranger: What's your discord?

You: ... bro

You: HAHA

You: eurae#9474

Stranger: We are on the same wavelength

You: icon should be of a nekomimi girl bc... im weak

Stranger: Added

Stranger: I think mine is a nekomimi boy so...

You: how can you be my kouhai if you're gonna be my oniichan :thinking:

Stranger: Shhhh

Stranger: Let it happen

You: so why you headed to LA anyway? work? o:

Stranger: Let this 23 yo onichan teach you the ways on how to be a bronze player in league of legends

You: bro we are the same age

Stranger: Work! I film!

Stranger: I am in Arizona rn

You: oh wow! do you travel a lot for work? o:

Stranger: From Canada tho! Going back tomorrow evening to the great white north!

Stranger: Here and there ^^

Stranger: I make the usual.

You: it's too hot here anyway q_q

Stranger: Wedding videos, music videos, commercials, porn

You: socal born and raised, still cant stand the heat

Stranger: Wait forget the last one

You: hey man why should i judge

Stranger: Which city?

You: how did our conversation start HAHA

Stranger: Haha just being silly xP

You: alhambra! it's about 30 mins out from LA

Stranger: Idk but it was amazing

Stranger: And it was fate legit

You: best laugh i've had in a while

Stranger: I was gonna sleep

You: honestly

Stranger: Before I clicked

Stranger: Then for some reason I didn't

Stranger: Idk shy

You: honestly i was about to close omegle because i kept getting kik bots

Stranger: Right????

Stranger: My god

You: "M 17 and horny" boy you are a MINOR

Stranger: The tag japanese is ONLY BOTS

Stranger: That's the one!!!

Stranger: Looking for weeb gf??

You: chris hansen? hello?

You: YEAH

You: almost got fuckin whiplash

Stranger: Omg

You: LOL

Stranger: Get Christmas on the line

You: konnichiwa keisatsu desuka?

Stranger: So you are Male too right just wondering?

Stranger: Loooool

You: 女だよ

Stranger: へええ まじで

You: そうよ！変かなぁ？ｗｗ

You: girls dont exist on the internet right lmao

Stranger: Well in that case *flexes arms* I hope you know I am at the top of my class. I main Vayne. Hit silver 3 last season yeah I am a total stud

Stranger: Hahaha right??? I play with a few actually and it is toooo funny when we play league with randoms xD

You: bro i can be your support and get mad when i flash+all in and die bc no one else followed up

Stranger: Hontoni omoshiroi

You: or jungle and feed

Stranger: Looo

Stranger: All seriousness

Stranger: I dont main Vayne anymore lol

You: it's been an age man, i played season 3-4

Stranger: I main twitch hit plat this season and also play a bit of top. I would love to play with you though! <3

Stranger: Damnnnnn I started in s5 lol

Stranger: What do you play nowadays?

Stranger: What are your hobbies?

You: my high school was chock full of league peeps man, i just got pulled in around then

Stranger: Same but I have a story about that hH

You: i draw? and for games, I lean pretty heavily into strategy/jrpg

You: i... quit league cause i got to be a picturesque toxic league player >____>

Stranger: I have too much I wanna talk about and I gotta sleep hehe I wont be home till late so talk to you day after? If you have tele you can text me there too uwu

You: oh yeah!! :3 we can trade numbers later!

Stranger: Ooh I would love to see your drawings and being toxic is bad! XP

You: wouldn't want you to die on yr 2 hr drive at 5mi/hr

You: LOL

Stranger: HahH

Stranger: Do you have telegram?

You: i don't! is that like a texting app? o:

Stranger: Mhmm! With loooooots of cute stickers!

You: s...stickers

Stranger: Mostly furries use it but it has cute anime ones too

You: i tried to use line for a while because of the stickers (poptepipic what's gud) but no one else used it qq

Stranger: Yeah! Just download it and I'll teach you!

You: guess it's time to make a fursona!

You: LOL

Stranger: I used line when I lived in Japan haha

You: o: you lived in japan omg

Stranger: Yup guess so! XD everyone has one nowadays! :p

Stranger: Download it and let me know wha TV your @ is and I'll add you!

Stranger: What your* not tv looool

Stranger: I did yeah for a year

You: does it go by name?

You: ... "tams loves catgirls"

Stranger: My tele is @imyourkohai

Stranger: If you go to send a message you can put that in and message me

Stranger: Lol yes that is right hahah

You: haha okay, i should let you get to sleep!!

Stranger: Okay!!!

You: do you have a call time or anything? o:

Stranger: Nini

Stranger: Nah just a meeting all g :3

You: okay!! haha oyasumi~ we'll talk more tmr :3

Stranger: Ouasumiii

Stranger has disconnected.

[nolongerironicteenwrites]

Café au: Suga is a barista and reader gets flustered whenever he takes their order, and another coworker (like Noya or Kuroo) always asks the reader, “you sure you don’t want any extra Suga?” making them even more flustered

this is so cute i nearly died. im sorry if this took long to get out! i hope you enjoy it! 

reader prompt: “coffee shop au and bad taglines” 

Sugawara Koushi x reader: 

You stumbled upon this little shop to escape the brisk wind. It was kind of dead and there was only one barista working. You blew into your hands in a futile attempt to warm your hands but it was useless.

  “You know. come get a warm drink and that’ll fix it right up.” the silvery blond at the counter smiled. 

You looked up and swore you saw an angel. You nodded your head and moved closer. Your hands were suddenly very warm and sweaty. He was a really pretty person. 

   “So what can I get you?” he asked. 

   “Uh just a-a tea- a nice warm tea yeah. Tea!” you stuttered in a flustered mess, you read his name tag, Sugawara K. 

   “And a name?” 

   “(y/n.” you replied. 

He gave you a soft smile and began to work. You moved out the way down to the pickup side of the counter. You pulled out your phone and texted your friend Kuroo. c

you: kuroo where do you work? 

cat-tin: uh the coffee shop on main, perk-me up why? 

you: im here and the barista is ridiculously cute. like im so 

   “Order for (y/n).” Sugawara called out. 

You jumped and dropped your phone mid-message. The clattering of your phone on the counter scared him too. You picked up your phone and took your cup. You quickly turned around and took shelter in a booth. You examined your phone and serviced any damage, nothing major maybe a scratch. You pulled up the messages between you and Kuroo and finished the message you were typing out and you locked your phone. 

You were watching Sugawara from the table. He as cleaning the counters while taking the orders from the drive-thru. Your phone vibrated and you opened it up it was Kuroo.

cat-tin: who is it sugawara? noya? come on gimmie a name. 

you: sugawara 

cat-tin: should have guessed. on a scale of like one to ten how flustered did you get? 

you: when he called my order i dropped my phone. 

kuroo: ripppppp 

You locked your phone and dropped it into your backpack. You grabbed your cup and left the shop. The overhead bell rang and Suga looked up and watched you leave. He can’t like you were intriguing and he did think you were adorable. The way you fumbled your phone and order were slightly endearing to him. He sighed and looked out the window as you passed. 

You avoided the sho the days following like the plague. You really didn’t want to be there no go there but today the rain was just too much for your umbrella and you needed to get into a building before you got soaked to the bone. You stood under the awning and shook out your umbrella before going inside and placing it in the umbrella holder. You shook out the cold and the remnants of rain on your person when someone called your name. You turn to see Kuroo and Sugawara together. 

  “You’re back.” Sugawara smiled from behind a machine. 

You smiled and waved moving closer to the counter. Kuroo was taking orders so you could breathe. 

  “What would you like? Tea? Coffee? Something extra Suga-ry sweet.” 

  “Please stop I may stab you with this spoon.” you threatened. 

  “I could take my break and get Suga to-” he started. 

  “No there’s no need for that. Uh just a tea please.” 

  “With extra Su-” he started but was cut off by you throwing the spoon at him. 

He huffed and took the tea packet out of your hand and set to work. You moved to the pick-up area and waited. Kuroo brought you your cup with a wink. You rolled your eyes and sat down at the counter instead. You brought the cp to your lips and noticed the writing on the side. 

this drink is hot, careful, but if you happen to burn yourself i know a cure ;) -suga 

And a phone number. You look at the blushing boy your palms were sweating and he gave you a small wave making you nearly drop the cup. His face panicked until you regained the cup and kind of gave a mock toast. He looked relaxed as you took a sip. 

[attickit]

Taggy.

RULES: tag blogs you want to get to know better. (shhhhh we know thats not going to happen cause I am crap at keeping tags going. like it all dies with me)

Thanks @angustdissin (learn me more and all ya gone get is probably a depressing story at the end... I’ll try not to go so much into it though)

Gender: Male

Star sign: Leo sun

Height: 167 cm (I am a smol child...)

Sexual orientation: Demi/grey-homo sexual (I’m pan-romantic though so that’s more open cause I am a sucker for romance)

Hogwarts house: Official Slytherin

Favourite colour(s): Crimson, Scarlet (well reds basically) Dark blues and soft browns (grey and black too but those are shades and not colours apparently)

Favourite animal: All kinds of cats, wolves and No. 1 spot goes to foxes.

Average hours of sleep: I work with 6-8 hours with my meds cause I’m screwy with my sleep schedule. Without the meds it can range from no sleep to about 4 hours.

Cat or dog: I’m a cat person ((I still love dogs cause hell yeah gimmie some pups))

Favourite fictional character: I don’t know if I have one but if i must choose among my children... River Song cause that lady’s entire arc and life hit me so hard and I love her so much. So much conflict in a person but masked so well.

number of blankets: I have two blankets. A jacket by bed side as standby if not enough.

favourite singer/band: Kpop band is currently BTS. Singer is my wonder child Eddy Kim. English band is well... hmmm... I am torn between so many. Singer, Idk.

dream trip: Travelling to all the art and/or history museums all over the world.

dream job: Anything to do with music or audio cause that is my passion. Next to that is writing of course.

when was this blog made: This particular one? Uh March? Of 2013?

number of followers: Hundred twenty something. Don’t really keep track.

Ok the last one is gonna be under a cut cause Imma just gonna be through with explaining a bit. its not gonna answer a lot of questions. might leave you with some. I am ok to talk about it with like I dont care about that part of my life anymore so im neutral about it.

what made you decide to create this blog: Ok here’s the thing, I created this particular blog to actually help me along with my broken self. So I created it to just help me feel better, make the pain and emptiness of depression just go away. It was also created to just get me to do something other than lay around steeping in nasty deathly thoughts so it kind worked. I filled it up with lots of random things then I got into reblogging things I liked like kpop so it ended up being really helpful. I’m slightly depended on it now but that’s how it is plus I don’t mind it. (also the bad things dont come so often anymore which means i’m here to enjoy this site and my blog.)

[twofee]

20 questions because i was tagged by my pal ashlie / @ofgodsandllamas! and then some more for awesome @alienpod :)

Name: stefi

Nicknames: twofee, f, anna, alice, missy

Zodiac sign: libra

Height: 5′10″ / 178cm

Orientation: maybe boys?

Ethnicity: mostly german and some french i guess? i am very whitebread and typical of the area i live in.

Favorite fruit: grapefruit (which i eat in a v.messy way because i peel all the skin off) and raspberries or blackberries.

Favorite season: early fall.

Favorite book series: harry potter with a soft spot for nancy drew. also the spellman files by lisa lutz.

Favorite flower: i think flowers are v.pretty but i can’t handle the fragrance so i generally prefer green plants, but sunflowers.

Favorite scent: my nose is very picky and most anything gives me major sinus pressure, but i stray on the fruity side of things, citrus mostly. or simple aloe vera.

Favorite color: all of them? more jewel tone than pastel though. teal and red are popular at the moment.

Favorite animal: ducklings and doggies! also stilts mcgee (giraffe).

Coffee, tea, or hot cocoa: hocho! occasionally coffee (w/sugar). never tea.

Average sleep hours: lately, less than 4 in a row.

Cat or dog person? gimmie both, but slightly more a dog person.

Favorite fictional characters: my mass effect loves mostly wrex, garrus, and james vega.

Number of blankets you sleep with: 3, but one is so thin it shouldnt really count.

Dream trip: at this point, id love to go anywhere new! but ideally i dream of getting to snorkel along a colorful reef or hike through a rain forest.

Blog created: jan of 2013, but ive been around tumblr longer than that.

Number of followers: im creeping up on 2000 now. i should probably start thinking up a gift to share but honestly things are going so slowly i shouldnt have to worry about it too soon.

Time right now: 315am

Last thing you googled: i do not recall. havent searched for anything yet tonight, just finished catching up on my dash.

Fave music artist: the wombats!

Song stuck in my head: wind in our sail by weezer

Last movie I watched: 10 things i hate about you i think (unless you count 20 min or so of gone in 60seconds while i was eating dinner the other night)

Last TV show I watched: 2 broke girls while eating dinner.

What I’m wearing right now: my pjs (orange and pink striped pants that are too short because they got shrunk in the dryer, a red tshirt that says i put ketchup on my ketchup, and a red fleece zipup)

The kind of stuff I post: on this blog, sims 2 things!

Why did I choose my url: its a childhood nickname that i always use as my online alias.

Gender: female

Hogwarts house: probably a hufflepuff

Pokémon team: not applicable

Lucky number: 17

Dream job: less people more puppies

Relationship status: none

Pets: 2 goldfish, dash and dailey.

Last song you listened to: bumblebeee by kasabian

Favorite TV Show: don’t have one. i will watch season 2 of stranger things when it comes out though.

First Fandom: sims.

ok, i tag @simper-fi, @biffysims, @yuuzhan, @grilledcheese-aspiration, @absaurussims, @syreni-sims, @vampireprincessmaria, @crystaldollhouse, @frottana-sims, @corruptuslocus, and @foxglovesims. and anyone else who wants to share :)

[grubhivemind]

RILEY: -while ryan falling  back into the web of addiction wasn't a good thing, she was grateful that she was given the chance to support her through this. she took advantage of every day's two hour long visiting period no matter what. the last she wanted was for ryan to feel like she was going through this alone- 

RILEY: -she gets clearance into the facility and knows by now not to bring much of anything--everything could be used as a weapon these days. and she walks into the common area, looking for her daughter-

RYAN: -she's got herself perched in an arm chair near a window, away from other small groups of visitors with patients. she seems to be zoning out a little, watching the happenings of the outside world, but she already looks like she's on the upswing in general, even with the pensive look on her face.- 

RYAN: -when riley enters, she catches a glimpse of the movement and perks to attention. a smile returns to her weary face, brightening her look immensely and she waves in case riley hasn't spotted her yet.-

RILEY: -her attention is grabbed by the waving and she greets her youngest with a warm grin- hey, baby.

RYAN: -hops up from her seat to capture riley in a hug. she really appreciates her visits... the loneliness really worsens the restlessness.- hey!!! i missed you.

RYAN: its only been a day but i missed you!!!

RILEY: -hugs her tightly and smooches her head- i missed you too, cutie. 

RILEY: how are you doing?

RYAN: im alright... just a little bored i guess. -sighs-

RYAN: i mean aside from all the gross withdrawal shit but hey. 

RYAN: its not as bad as it could be???

RILEY: -she pulls away to take a seat next to ryan's chair- you really feeling that optimistic despite all of this? i mean...you totally should. because it's gonna get better. i just know how hard it is to.

RYAN: -wringes her hands and then takes a seat again too.- yeah. i dunno. 

RYAN: last time i was in a place like this it wasnt really... my decision?

RYAN: guess its easier to be optimistic if you sorta feel in control.

RILEY: -nods- yeah. i totally agree. 

RILEY: it took a lot of maturity, you know. for you to put yourself first and come here. 

RILEY: i wouldn't have been able to do that at your age at all.

RYAN: ... -she just shrugs about that- just took advantage of a moment of clarity. 

RYAN: i had some motivation but... 

RYAN: i think mostly i was disappointed in myself? and i was tired of feeling bad about that. 

RYAN: time to put on me big girl panties i guess.

RILEY: -she smiles a little, listening to ryan talk- and you're pretty fucking amazing for it.

RILEY: but you've always been amazing.

RYAN: -she blush... she isn't sure how to receive a compliment like that. at least not in THIS context. she doesn't feel all that amazing. its just necessary.- aw gee. 

RYAN: youre just saying that. :blush: -still gonna act coy about it tho.-

RILEY: -ruffles her a hair a little- nah. 

RILEY: i'm real proud of you, kid. 

RILEY: just happy i get to hang around you this time around. 

RILEY: you know, impart my motherly wisdom or some shit like that.

RYAN: oh?? what nuggets of wisdom do you have to share with me today?

RILEY: fuck bitches get money.

RYAN: -snorts then pops and locks it- no no no no silly boys cant tame me. 

RYAN: bennys the only one whos ever gonna claim me. 

RYAN: uh uh uh uh im in love with the price tag. 

RYAN: gimmie your number imma give that shit right back. 

RYAN: fuck boyz get money. 

RYAN: fuck boyz get money.

RILEY: i like that better. 

RILEY: okay, but for real, i never got any motherly wisdom to impart in the first place. it's all just winging it.

RYAN: hehe... i figured thats how the parenting thing works. 

RYAN: i mean no offense.

RYAN: youre good at winging it.

RILEY: yeah? 

RILEY: good enough to get a g on my report card?

RYAN: more like straight up g.

RILEY: daaaaaaaaaaamn! 

RILEY: didn't see that one coming. 

RILEY: so have you made any friends here yet? 

RILEY: places like these are friend central.

RYAN: i mean... im friends with pretty much everyone. -looks around at all the folks visiting with their family and friends.- 

RYAN: im of moderate popularity. people either love me or hate me cuz im being so bitterly optimistic haha. 

RYAN: so you know. 

RYAN: love me or hate me its still an obsession.

RILEY: love me or hate me that is the question. 

RILEY: you've always been the light that draws all the moths and big bugs. 

RILEY: it sounds less like a compliment when i say it like that but i swear it is.

RYAN: -snorts- oh yeah... i attract all KINDS of creepy crawlies.

RILEY: where's the lie?

RYAN: -snickers, but then pauses thoughtfully.- hey... 

RYAN: im sure theres some wisdom you can share though? advice on how to like... 

RYAN: keep myself from feeling so  restless?

RILEY: -looks over at her as her expression softens a little- you can't. 

RILEY: it's a fun part of withdrawal, baby. 

RILEY: what you can do is try and distract yourself. or make sure you're never completely alone. cuz it's when you're alone that it gets unbearable.

RYAN: ... -looks down at her lap.-distractions are hard.

RILEY: they are. 

RILEY: or you can channel that energy into something artistic. 

RILEY: it's not going to take it away but at least you'll get something out of it, you know?

RYAN: -fidgets, but then nods.- i always try singing. 

RYAN: it usually helps a lil bit.

RILEY: keep singing. even if you don't want to anymore. 

RILEY: that's my advice.

RYAN: -some days it is harder to find her voice and it feels like those have been more often than not lately.- you wanna sing with me?

RILEY: -she smiles sweetly at her- there's no question about it. 

RILEY: i'd fuckin love to.

RYAN: -nods again, taking a deep breath.- alright cool. 

RYAN: -shuts her eyes, thinking of what she wants to sing... and then just lets it happen.- 

RYAN: when it went down it was hard to breathe. 

RYAN: i gave up everything in a slow fall down to the floor. RYAN: life was escaping me. i couldnt find myself. 

RYAN: til it was all lost. 

RYAN: not anymore. 

RYAN: im holding on to all the pieces of my hearts debris. 

RYAN: til its time. 

RYAN: ill put it together and fix myself eventually. 

RYAN: and know its mine.

RILEY: i found gold in the wreckage, put it on a necklace. 

RILEY: keepin' it cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine. 

RILEY: i wear it like a message so i don't forget it. 

RILEY: keepin' it cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine.

RILEY: i know that it's mine no matter what i do. -reaches over to push ryan's hair back- 

RILEY: i know that it's mine whether i win or lose. 

RILEY: and even though my heart needs to take its time. 

RILEY: i know that's mine, i know that it's mine.

RYAN: -chest tightens at the simple gesture.- facing the change but its still tough to see. 

RYAN: at first i fought it all. i was so mean. 

RYAN: im still unsure how its supposed to be. 

RYAN: but taking every day now by the skin of my teeth.

RYAN: until i learn. 

RYAN: im holding on to all the pieces of my hearts debris. 

RYAN: til its time. oh. 

RYAN: ill pull it together and fix myself eventually. 

RYAN: and know its mine. -she starts to sniffle, watching her mother sing with her.-

RILEY: i found gold in the wreckage, put it on a necklace. 

RILEY: keepin' it 'cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine. 

RILEY: i wear it like a message so i don't forget it. 

RILEY: keepin' it 'cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine. -takes the opportunity to bring Ryan against her, holding her and singing more softly.- 

RILEY: know that it's mine no matter what I do. 

RILEY: i know that it's mine whether I win or lose. 

RILEY: and even though my heart needs to take its time. 

RILEY: i know that it's mine, i know that it's mine.

RYAN: -curls up against her, clinging tightly and giving up on singing the rest of the song because she's trembling too badly now.-

RILEY: -just holds her safely in her arms and leans her head against her daughter's.. she's still singing, just very softly-

RYAN: -she just listens to her for a long while, letting the tears that escape from her to cleanse the heaviness in her heart. she feels like a kid again, crying over something trivial that her mother effortlessly cast away with her soothing songs. it reminds her of all the ways she wanted to be just like riley. maybe she got that wish in too many different ways, but she wouldn't change this connection they have now for anything. she feels safe just like this.-